It’s getting really real! T-16 days!
I will drive out of California in 16 days (ok, well, technically 17 days, as we’ll be staying in El Centro, California the first night to hit the border first thing in the morning the next day, but that’s semantics).
Lemme tell ya, the emotions are HIGH.
Movers picked up my belongings on Friday the 13th, making all of this feel way too real. I guess I’m really doing this. I’ve never had kids, but I suspect it’s kinda like being pregnant for 38 weeks and then all of a sudden realizing … I’m GOING TO HAVE TO GIVE BIRTH in two weeks. Except I’m birthing my new life instead of someone else’s (and hopefully, it’s exponentially less painful than actual childbirth). When the moving truck door closed - I realized - I’m actually going to have to do this move. Yeesh.
One of the most surprising and emotional aspects of preparing for this move abroad has been how people have responded to it. I’ve been deeply touched by the unexpected generosity of some individuals—people I hadn’t spoken to in years reaching out with kind words, thoughtful gifts, and genuine encouragement. Their gestures meant the world to me and reminded me of kindness's profound impact, even from unexpected corners of our lives.
At the same time, I’ve felt a twinge of disappointment in realizing that some of the people I thought were closest to me seemed indifferent or disengaged. Moments that felt like opportunities for connection or support passed by unnoticed. It’s not about the gifts or grand gestures, but the absence of care or acknowledgment from those I held dear has been a bit painful to process.
This experience has been a bittersweet reminder that relationships are complex, and people’s responses don’t always align with our expectations. I’m learning to focus on the love and support that did come my way, even if it arrived from unexpected sources. I’m lucky to have some outstanding people in my life, and I will do my best to hold them close, even as I move a little bit further away (“just a little further south” as I’ve been phrasing it)
Overall, I’m mostly excited - excited to see what comes of this opportunity I’m privileged enough to embark on. Of course, I am nervous too, as I’m just gonna be kinda like … out there … on my own … but hey, I’ve been on my own plenty of times in the past, and it’s all turned out well. This time, I’m heading out a much-improved version of myself in many ways (I learned a lot of valuable things during my 11-year relationship), and I can’t wait to see how those improvements manifest themselves in my new Mexican life.
Next blog entry will get back to the logistics … I promise. ;-)
